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I am exhausted 24/7.  It's even more cruel that I can't drink coffee.  That's just not even right at all.  But all in all I am feeling okay.  Except the fact that I am a nervous wreck all the time.  I am always thinking I am doing something wrong.  Which in turn will result in me losing this baby.  Remember I told you I was dramatic?  So here is what I am currently doing....

1.  Do not lay on stomach.
2.  Don't cough too hard.
3.  Avoid all speed bumps and potholes (thanks Deb!).
4.  Keep all laughing to a minimum.
5.  They tell me not to eat soft cheese, well hell I am taking that above and beyond.  No cheese at all for me. Oh yeah that's going to score me some points foooor suuuure!
6.  Never bend over or turn sideways too fast.  You don't want that little sucker poppin' out of there ya know.
7.  And finally tell your husband you can't clean at all.  For starters the fumes, ah duh, and second I'm exhausted.

So really 1-6 are a little fabricated.  Number 7 let's just say it's debatable. 

In latest news, I started my search for a new doctor and I really hope my two hour search on google reviews pays off.  We shall find out on March 9th.  I guess he schedules the ultrasounds after appointments so I won't have any pictures that day but that's ok.  But here's the kicker, if I don't like him I have another appointment with my old doctor on March 11th.  Now that's what I like to call smooth plannin'. 

Talk to you all soon :)

Finally Home!

Sorry I am just now blogging this!  I was so tired yesterday after driving home and had a busy day today.  My HCG came back at 177.  That is almost double from Wednesday!  We are hoping and praying that this is the one.  I have a really good feeling about it. Which I guess practically means nothing. :o)

Well I am sorry for this poor excuse for a blog, I did some yard work today and I am beat.  I will talk to you all soon!

Well Alright Then

Today was quite the day.  This is how it rolled...

9:00-   Got blood taken.
10:00- Keepin myself busy, I stroll into Hallmark.
10:20- Spend $50 on crap I didn't need but it felt good buying it to pass time.
11:00- Go out to lunch with my mom.
11:55- Bug my Dad about test results.
12:00- Return the $50 of said crap to Hallmark.
12:30- Get lost in Walmart.
1:00-   Bug my dad some more.  Threaten him a few times (that gets things movin ya know).
1:10-   Dad calls me.  Heart sinks, I think at that point it was somewhere between my lower intestines and upper bowel.  What?!  Wait those are connected right?  Whatever...

I will use the following quotes with names in front, to be honest those "" whatever thingies always confused me. Shh, be nice to me.

Dad:  "Well, I think you can get kind of excited."
Little Old Me: "Say huh?"
Dad:  "Your HCG is 98, and your progesterone is 23."
Me:   "You said 9.8 and 2.3 right?"
Dad:  "Nope, you heard me lady."  The previous statement is true, I am quite a lady.

So there I was in asile 21 at Walmart, in between the Charmin and Cottonelle.  Crying. And really this is Walmart, I didn't even get looked at funny.  

In all seriousness, Chris and I are very hopeful.  We are still taking this one day at a time.  Not to mention, I still have to pass Fridays test. And Lord knows if my life was based upon HCG Quants, I'd fail at life.  So I really honestly can't sit here and talk about how excited I am.  Because I just don't know yet.  Today gave me a pretty good guess.  But I want to see what Friday is all about.  I know I will be a nervous wreck throughout the first trimester so we are going to take this slow.  Thank you friends and family for prayers.  It truly means a lot. I am leaving here after my blood test on Friday.  Will update you all then.

Wait a Second....

So I have been feeling pregnant again.  I won't go through the symptoms, at this point ya got it down!  I thought it was all in my head since I had an HCG blood test.  Well, I'm guessing it was too early.  I took a pregnancy test this morning and I got a positive.  I'm not sure how to really feel right now.  I guess I am scared, nervous, and anticipating the worst. 

I'm leaving here in about an hour to head to Nebraska and my dog sitter is going to hold down the fort here.  Yes, I did say dog sitter. Anyways, they are going to do a progesterone test and maybe an HCG Quant, great.  I have been down this road twice and whatever the outcome of this I know that we will be okay.  We will move on.  The one thing I can't do is stop trying.  Stop believing in hope.  Because after all of this, I know one day I will be holding a precious little miracle.  And all of this pain is most definitely worth it. 

I also want to apologize to friends and family for not calling them first.  I hope there are no ill feelings reading this on a blog.  To be honest with you, I don't think there is anyway I can call everyone and tell them I'm pregnant, because if something happens again I can't make that phone call.  I love you all and I just wanted to keep everyone updated.  A few extra prayers never hurt that's for sure!

Will give you an update tomorrow night.  I'm praying for high numbers!

Roadtripin'

I am happy to report our roadtrip was a success, Creighton only cried a few times in the car and my sister and I had a great time chatting.  It felt like high school again, my parents, my sister and I all home at the same time. We spat out a few stories about the good ol' days when our only worry was if our homework was done on time.  To be expected, mine never was. I never aim to be an overacheiver, what kind of fun is that?

I am unhappy to report our Clomid testing was unsuccessful. I got my progesterone tested and it came back at 8.2 only .2 higher than last month.  All those hot flashes for .2?  Lame.  My dad told me a lot of times Clomid can take a month for your body to get used to it and start responding.  I mean seriously Clomid why do you do me like that?  Could you at least give me a 10?!  Make those hot flashes at least worth something!

We also decided to throw in a HCG test for chutes and ladders....grins and giggles...whatever, I'll give up cussing next month.... Anyways, it came back negative.  Which to be honest is kind of a good thing, with my levels so low again the egg wouldn't have "stuck".  I would have gotten a positive again and had all that heartache schmeartache all over again. And that is truly over rated. 

So we move on to next month, heads up and feet moving forward. Clomid round two get ready cause I'm a gonna kick your ass. Now, I really need to get to sleep I had a long day of driving.  But unfortunately for me, I can't shut my brain off.  I seriously wish there was a little switch in your brain that you could just click off and zzzz's the night away.  You know, I think the name for that might actually be Xanax.  Seeing as I'm fresh out (I kid!) I'll have to do this the old fashioned way.  Count my sheep, adorned in Chanel.  Weird is what you think?  Well, if I am about to count these things for the next two hours I would like them to look nice.  I mean really.

Sheep are a go, in pink dresses and nude pumps.
1....5....100...300....1,000....I have so much to do tomorrow......shit, my sheep......
1,100, 3,000......zzzzzzz........zzzzzzzzz........

Holy Snowballs Batman

I'm pretty sure Mother Nature had an off day.  I think she forgot this is Oklahoma and not Alaska.  We got hit with a pretty big storm, coming in at around 17 inches.  We were stuck in our house for about 3 days before digging ourselves out of our cul-de-sac.  Being stuck wasn't too bad, I mean with all those Okies driving around  I'm pretty sure we would have made it about a block away before getting hit.

Chris' office was closed all week.  It felt like a free vacation and we had fun (until the extreme boredom set in).  Got a lot of books read, some delicious meals made, and even baked some cookies.  Don't get ahead of yourself here, these are the pre-made drop and bake ones. I know, but they were good!

I'll be leaving here on Tuesday to head to Kansas City.  I'm going to pick up my sister and my cutie of a nephew, CJ, and head to Omaha.  Do I smell a road trip montage?  I think I do.

Will be getting my blood drawn on Thursday and Saturday to check out levels.  Will report back at ya then, in the meantime here are a few pics of the storm.